Seek Ye First the Kingdom of God
This time last year, I was a naive girl who used to snicker under her breath every time someone said to ‘Let go and let God work.’ It’s not that I didn’t trust Him at the time, but being the controlling person that I was, my compulsive need to fix things always made me assume that I knew better and that I could do it better. Little did I know that when you choose to live life on your own terms, God will find a way to remind you that you’ve wavered from His path.
For most of my time in college, my prayer time took the backseat. The phrase YOLO (you only live once) had begun to float around, and I was swept into the sea of angsty teens who wanted to make the most of the time we had, doing everything we possibly could. I spent most of my evenings attending parties or whiling away time at a friend’s home, while subsequently in the mornings I was bored out of my head in the lecture room. And of course, a couple of hours were dedicated to my then boyfriend, who I couldn’t see much beyond. This hapless cycle continued, and I failed time and again to see the importance of prioritizing my relationship with God. I failed to make time to simply sit in the presence of the Lord and ask Him what He wanted from me. But, He still hadn’t given up on me.
The biggest eye opener for me was when college finished and each of my friends set out on their respective career paths with a clear cut goal in mind, and I was left scratching my head thinking, ‘What next?’ Like I said earlier, God has His ways, and He sure had one for me that year when He carefully orchestrated my plans for a job. It’s true what Isaiah 55:8-9 says, “My ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” As I began to look for a job, I started to see how God was opening doors that I didn’t even think worthy of knocking. This is when I started becoming aware of His wonderful provision in my life, with each company website I stumbled across and the vacancies that were available at the time. With minimal effort from my side, He saw me through the entire process that spanned the anxiety of applying for a job, the nervousness that followed during the interview, and the sheer joy that I was filled with on receiving my confirmation letter.
This phase taught me that I needed to get on my knees and look up to Him for His wisdom and guidance not only in those times when I’m in dire need of something, but also when I feel like I have it all together. I used to be afraid of letting it go and letting Him work, simply because I was too scared to see how things would turn out if I wasn’t in charge of making decisions. And, although I struggle to surrender daily, even in the minutest situations, I know that He’s watching over, ever ready to draw me back to Him.
Matthew 6:26 makes us question, “Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” It’s only human to worry about things of the future. You’re not alone, and neither was I when I was plagued by the YOLO motto back in college. We want to do it all, see it all, be it all; but, what about what God wants us to do? What about the places He’s calling us to discover? What about the person He’s leading us to be?
In daily situations, when I feel like I’m trapped between things of this world and things from above, the beautiful verse that we sing in church comes to my aid, “Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” These simple words have helped me to set my mind on Godly things when selfishness takes over, to seek what the Lord would want from my life in times when I’m grappling with impatience, and to wait on His plan for me when I feel like I know it all and try to be in total control. Because, you want to know what happens when you decide to do this? Like the verse concludes, He will make all things happen for you, the deepest desires of your heart, the plans that you’re second guessing, the people your life is missing, He will add all these things to you, and more, if only you let go and let God work.
Pearl Mathias lives in the small town of Mazgaon, in the big city of Mumbai. She had the most beautiful encounter with the Lord while serving in Kairos, India. She spends her daylight hours writing for a local newspaper and buries herself in a book come night. She's easily inspired by people, fascinated by sunsets and in love with tea. Her mission is to be more Christ-like, right where she is, using what she has and doing what she can.